Monday, June 27, 2011

Novel...Forgiveness for cheaters?


I just finished this book. Have you read it?

Interesting....

(SPOILER ALERT--DON'T READ IF YOU WANT TO READ THE BOOK)

Husband cheats. Wife discovers. To forgive or not?

My sister dealt with this...I know every situation is different. Her husband was a serial cheater. In the book, it was a one time deal.

Does this matter? Or should I say, would it matter to you?

I've always said I would leave no matter what! I don't even want to think about it....ugh.

I have some friends who have left, and some who have stayed. I am also hesitant to admit that a long time ago (before I was married) ...I worked with someone who was "the other woman"....she says it was/is her biggest regret. I really have trouble with dishonesty.

I think I would constantly worry and question.

In the book, it brings up staying for the kids. Is this a good thing?

This book was a great read, but really got me to thinking...maybe b/c my sister has just gone through her horrible ordeal.

What are your thoughts?

Saturday, June 25, 2011

The ONE Thing

I am a perfectionist. That is...in all things, but my weight. Please believe me, I am not perfect. But I feel good about my job as a wife, mother, and teacher. Even good about my relationhips with others who are important to me: my role as a daughter, sister, and friend. (Well, maybe I struggle with my MIL, but you know...) My point is that I feel good about everything, BUT MY WEIGHT!

It's my ONE thing. Why is this?

I woke up last night thinking about this. I'm not sure where the moment came from...but I suddenly realized something.

I am successful at things I try to do my best at. I rarely attempt anything that I will fail at. Hence, the perfectionism.

I suddenly realized that my "perfectionist" quality may be holding me back in the weight loss department. I think I'm not trying as hard as I could because I don't feel I can be perfect.

That's when it hit me:
I don't have to be perfect...just better.

Let me repeat that:

I don't have to be perfect...just better.

I can just do better at exercising.

I can just be a better size clothing.

I can be in better shape.

I can eat better.

I can FEEL better.

Not to expect perfection...just be better.

I think this may be KEY for me.

What do you think?

J



Friday, June 24, 2011

Bloggy Bullying

I like to click on the your blogs that I follow and then visit blogs that you follow, too! It is a great way to find new blogs. Sometimes, I also click on the blogs of your commentors if I really like something they said.

The other day, I stumbled onto a blog (who shall remain nameless)...I am pretty certain I discovered some bloggy bullying. This blog was attacking another blogger ferociously...and not being so nice to others! Wow, I was shocked.

I found myself hoping that this never happens to me!

The teacher in me wanted to say things like:
  • let's all play nice!"
  • live and let live
  • don't say anything if you can't say something nice
  • reading someone's blog is a choice. if you don't like it, don't read it
Have you ever seen anything like this?
J

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Breakfast for a gang

I had my nephews staying with us this morning. I decided to make a breakfast dish my family loves. I forgot to take the picture before they all dug in...so you get the half eaten version!



So easy! (not low fat by any means!!! But you could adjust recipe a little if you want to lessen the calories. I like it b/c it goes a long way when you have to feed the gang! Scamble eggs and put out fresh fruit...waa--lah, breakfast is served!

Ingredients:
2 packages of crescent rolls (8 count)
1 package of cream cheese (8 oz. I think)
1 pound of sausage (I use mild, but you can go as spicey as you need!)

(to make the dish healthier, you could use turkey sausage, lite cream cheese, and low fat crescents)

Directions:
scamble the sausage til cooked, then drain
add in cream cheese
mix cream cheese and sausage well

In a 13x9 greased dish ( I use Pam), put down one package of crescent rolls flat. Pour sausage mixture on top, then lay out the other package of crescent rolls on top. Bake until crescents on top are done.

Yum!

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Public vs. Private

Do you eat differently in private than you do in public?

I do. I admit here, on this blog.

I would never eat an entire bag of truffles in public...but I have in private.

I would never eat 5 pieces of pizza in public...but I have in private.

I would never eat 4 waffles in public...but I have in private.

I would never eat and eat and eat and eat until I felt sick in public, but oh, I have in private.

See a pattern here. I think I will try pretending that I am eating with a crowd around me all the time. :)
Maybe that will help!


In other news, I ended my Diet Coke addiction (again) yesterday.
My eating was moderate...not perfect. So I'll start my 14 days over again today. grumph! At least it wasn't as bad as it has been! 

Talk to you later!
J

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

A New Bathing Suit

I have been on the hunt for the PERFECT Bathing Suit.

Is there such a thing?

I want flattering and inexpensive....

I've worn a tankini for a few years now. The kind that doesn't show the tummy, but I can still tinkle on having to pull down the bottoms...very convenient. I also have a long torso and these just feel better.

I've been having trouble with the halter necklines. It is very hard to find a different neckline...or at least it has been to me.

I also always stick with black, brown, or darker colors...

But the other day, I saw this in Target:

Sorry the picture is so small, but it was too blurry when I made it bigger. You can click the link to see it larger if you want. This top is so wonderful. It is perfect to wear strapless for no tan lines! I have NEVER worn a strapless top...well since high school maybe. Anyway, I have gotten so many compliments since I've had it. My husband said it is the best fit I've worn in a long time. I'm going to get one in another color...and it was only 20 bucks.

I really want to get a nice suit when I lose weight...hmmm, have we heard that before?

I love suits from Athleta and similar stores, but just don't want to fork out $150 for a swimsuit. Maybe a weight loss treat for goal?

Have you found good bathing suits? Share the details!

J

Monday, June 20, 2011

Friend Makin' Mondays

It's time for Friend Makin' Monday! Go over to Kenz's blog to link up!

Here's what Kenz says: If you’ve taken part in FMM then you know the rules. If you’re new, please take a moment to answer this week’s question on your own blog then add your link in the comments section here at: www.alltheweigh.com so we can all see your FMM questions and answers. Please invite your blog readers to add their links here too so everyone has to opportunity to be seen. The idea is to connect with other awesome bloggers so take a moment to post your own FMM post and comment on a couple of other posts. Now it’s time for this week’s topic!




FMM: Yes or No?




Do you use coupons? Very rarely...I always forget. But I sure do admire people who save loads of money.

Do you like football? Yes...my husband loves this about me! ;-)

Are you in a relationship? Yes, married. We've been together for about 14 years...I'm more in love now than ever! What a blessing!

Is your phone always within arm’s reach? No…most of time time, yes…but not always..

Do you like thunderstorms? Storms don't bother me, but I hate windy storms. I have a fear of trees hitting the house.

Can you cook? Yes, but I go through spells of cooking a lot and not. It usually depends on how hectic life is at the time.

Are you – or have you – lost weight? Yes…but need to lose MORE.

Do you know how to read a map? Yes

Do you wear makeup? Yes! I believe in less is more, though. As I get older, I have found myself using more....to cover "things"

Do you read regularly? Yes. I LOVE TO READ.

Are you publicly affectionate? Yes, but in an appropriate way.

Do you like picnics? Yes! As long as it isn't too buggy.

Do you have a/c? Yes! This is a must have...I don't like to be hot.

Have you ever been out of the country? Yes!

Do you know how to ride a bicycle? Yes

Okay, now it’s your turn to answer the questions! And these are easy, right? Don’t forget to come back and link up! And have a happy Monday! =)

J

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Happy Father's Day!

My husband is a wonderful FATHER!
I am so thankful for him and for the blessing he is to me and our children.

Happy Father's Day!
J

Friday, June 17, 2011

Is this my personality or another weight issue?

I was out with my family this week. We went to a small pizza pub ...very casual.



I was with my two GORGEOUS SISTERS...who are thin. One showed up straight from work the other had been swimming with me.


Working sister was in killer heels (I don't know how she walked in them) and a body skimming dress. She was accessorized to the hilt.


Swimming sister put on a beautiful, bright, colorful maxi dress. Put some "product" on her hair to creak a sleek pony tail and big earrings were added.


Me: pony tail --not the sleek kind, the kind that says...I've been swimming so I just put my hair up. I also wore flip flops, shorts, and a t-shirt. In my defense, it was a cute t-shirt, but I still had a case of the "inadequates"


So...it led to a conversation with my husband:

  • do you wish I dressed cuter?
  • do you wish I put more effort into my appearance?
  • do you wish I dressed sexier?
  • do you wish I ALWAYS looked like I stepped out of a magazine?

I'm sure I drove him half crazy with all of the questions. Of course, he said he loves me just like I am... he knows how to answer to keep himself out of trouble.


He actually prefers me very natural...if he had his way, I'd never wear make-up.

I can dress up...and I do when I feel it is necessary or the situation calls for it.

My question to myself is...am I this way b/c it is more my personality or I am not trying for the cute looks because of my weight?


(Am I rambling?)

I am definitely a less is more person. I do know that I prefer to save my "sexiness" for private moments with my husband (which really isn't affected by weight at all...surprisingly...maybe I try to suck in at times, but overall very good in that area). I'm definitely not the trendiest, but not the old lady either...somewhere in the middle.

Does this even matter?

Well, not what I wear. But, why do I feel the constant need to compare myself to others????!!!

Will I ever stop this madness?

***Do you ever feel anything like this?

J


NEW GOAL---Going for 2 weeks of perfect eating to try to get myself on track! :)

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

I must remember...

I will remember being in the dressing room and feeling like crying

I will remember sucking in and trying to sit "just right" while in my swimsuit

I will remember being embarrassed by my arms in a sleeveless shirt

I will remember feeling sick after a binge

I will remember feeling judged by my weight rather than by ME

I will remember feeling compared to my thin sisters and thus feeling inadequate

I will remember sitting in the pool rather than jumping off the diving board b/c I didn't want my fat to shake

I will remember avoiding having my picture taken

I will remember bringing my clothes home to try on rather than doing it at the store...maybe I felt thinner at home

I will remember dreading the scale at the doctor's office

I will remember wanting to feel sexy while making love to my husband

I will remember feeling my muscles when I run

I will remember feeling energized when I drank water and ate right

I will remember the feeling of satisfaction when I make good choices all day

I will remember feeling victory when I see a loss on the scale

I will remember trying on a smaller size pants...and they fit

I will remember gaining confidence

Here's to remembering and doing everything to never go back
J

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Eating right?

I've been trying to get back on track...is summer tough for anyone else?

Snacks seem to multiply right before my eyes! Especially when we are out boating...a little bag of chips is so much easier to take than fruit that needs to be kept cold. I can come up with a million excuses...hee hee hee.

I'm tired of maintaining and need to get back on the losses.

I've been thinking of having 10 days of no carbs and seeing what happens. I was reading Dawne's blog about the Dukan Diet...couldn't resist checking it out. It said my true weight is 153 pounds. According to the website, I can reach this weight by September if I "just follow their meal plan." Oh, if only it were that easy, right? We could all lose weight if we just followed THE PLAN. regardless of the plan...just follow it.

I know this...

I want this...

I can do it...

J

Monday, June 13, 2011

Yes, Mam

So, my boss called. They've made decisions which affect our school that the faculty doesn't really agree with nor understand. It's stressing me out, but what can I do? It is completely out of my control.

I've prayed the Lord will give me a peace about the situations and that I will learn to accept that those in our leadership at school have the authority...not me.

Just have to let it go....
say "yes, mam" and be a good steward of the school

Can you tell I needed to vent?
J

Saturday, June 11, 2011

In a Bubble

do you ever wish you could live in bubble?

last night, i woke in the middle of the night...stressed about work and the addition to our home. I found myself wishing we (hubs and kids) could just live in a bubble...not having to worry about other people.

of course, this feeling is totally incomplete...i would really miss my sisters and parents. mother in law? not so much. :) and of course, i do have friends that i would miss terribly.

why was i feeling this way? i think i just don't want to be bothered...with money issues, work issues, MIL issues...with weight

i almost asked my hubs if he could live with me just like i am forever. then, i could put away this weight problem, right? wrong.

the problem is not with him. it is with me. he loves me. has never said a thing. although i am sure he likes this body better than the 222 pound body i once had. and he probably remembers distantly the 125 pound body that he married....oh, the days. anyway...he doesn't care.

i care

i want to lose the weight forever

that is the biggest problem for me

the work stuff--out of my control

the money stuff over renovations---going to be fabulous when it's over, papers are signed, deal is done

i need to get back on the weight...it's weighing me down

Thursday, June 9, 2011

From Envy to Admiration

(Just want to start off by saying...What is wrong with Blogger and commenting? Anyone else having trouble? I haven't been able to comment on your lovely blogs for several days!)

Anyway, back to my title...From Envy to Admiration

I've been spending time at the pool with my sisters. My sister that had a baby just a little while ago...is already back in her bikini! If you remember, she was the one who joined Weight Watchers to lose 15 pounds. Well, she did it and lost even more. She is so thin!

Our weekend began with me turning GREEN with envy! I'm serious. I couldn't stop staring at her...looking for the little belly baby bulge...nope, not there. I was like "LIFE is not fair!" Whining inside my head like a freakin' baby! I swear! I did that for about 2 days.

THEN, I realized...I should not be envious! I should admire her. She doesn't really enjoy exercise but she sure does have A-MA-ZING self control when eating! I really admire that. Not to say she doesn't ever indulge, she does. But in MODERATION....something I've forgotten the past 2 months.

My other sister....is the athlete! She runs and runs and runs. She is also very fit and trim. Then, she eats like a MAN! She's not trying to lose- just maintain.

So, I've learned to stop whining and admire them. Stop whining and DO IT!

Get back on the train...and do it!
LOSE IT!

Here's my restart...again.
J

Friday, June 3, 2011

SCHOOL'S....

OUT FOR SUMMER!!!!!

Anyone else remember that tune? I sing it every year at the end of my school year!

I am finally able to relax--just a bit. I am going straight from work into home remodeling. I am going to deny myself stress eating! I figure if I say  "I am going to" rather than "I will try to" it sounds better. :)

Again, I have to report that I have just been maintaining. I hope to start losing this week. I've got to take this plan seriously! :)

We don't have big vacation plans...just some long weekends planned due to our home construction project, but I am very excited about it!

What are your summer plans?

J

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Loving me...failed

I did two posts on what I like about me...physically....

Sad, I can't find anything else. My hands and my eyes. That's all I was willing to put up here on the blog.

Sad, sad, sad...

There are some things that I am beginning to think are "okay" but I can't really say...I LOVE MY _____.

So, I'm going to make a list of 5 traits I love about me...maybe this counts:
1. I am very loyal to those I love: friends and family.
2. I am a romantic to my core. I want everyone to be happy and find their perfect mate.
3. I am flexible. Nothing really rattles me. I can spring into action at a moment's notice, and I never mind if plans change.
4. I am generous.
5. I am very loving. I love with my whole heart.

These things are definitely more important than skinny hips and a cute butt...why don't they cheer me up as much as losing 5 pounds?

Maybe, I need therapy! :)

When you know better, you do better.

I could apply this sentiment to so many areas of my life. Mostly, I am working on applying it the scale. I don't need to focus on it half as much as I do. Rather, I need to focus on my inner beauty and how I feel.

The rest will come.

Do you deal with these feelings, too?

J

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Emotional Roller Coaster

I eat for all reasons.

Sometimes, I don't even know/realize I am eating. It is pointless eating. I almost don't taste the stuff I am scarfing down.
Yet, I believe it makes me feel better. I must believe this. Why else would I eat my emotions over and over again?

Recently, I have begun trying to stop myself in those moments and analyze the reasons for my emotional eating. I have been asking myself: What is wrong in this moment? What are you feeling?

Sounds a little mental, I know. But, I 've been able to stop myself a few times. Slow progress.

If this lifestyle is going to be for life, I have to get a handle on emotional eating.

Emotions are for life. Life is hard. Stress will always be there.

Don't get me wrong, I eat for happy reasons, too. It just seems worse when things are stressful, lonely, or agitated.

We are adding onto our house----big stressful project. AND, my job may change in August. another stressor.

I know I cannot eat these feelings of "out of control"...but I'm learning how to cope and deal with it. Knowing and doing are two different things.

Do you eat for emotional reasons?

J

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

a name

My name is Jess. Many of you know me as J. I started this blog with the intention of being completely anonymous. However, as I've gotten to "know" you...I feel that I've been holding back a little too much.

I was reading another blog last night. The blogger said that every time she takes a big break from blogging things are not going well in her "weight" world. That is so me.

I guess I am trying to hide from you: Hide my feelings, my failures, my insecurities, my lapses, my mistakes...

but we are friends.

We help each other and support through the ups and downs, right?

So...I'm going to try to be more real...more me.

Thank you for your friendship.
J

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Relapse and Restart

Well, I am getting better from my gallbladder surgery. I feel so much relief. I had been having severe backpain, nausea, and abdominal pain. Now, I am just a little sore but starting to feel like ME.

I am holding steady around 175. I really need to get back on the wagon. I am glad that I haven't gained, but it is time to get back to losing. I need to be more conscious of every thing I put in my mouth.

Here's one BIG failure... For some crazy reason, I started drinking Diet Coke again. When I was so nauseous, water just didn't sit well with me. I tried a DC. It was so good...down the slippery slope I went! Yesterday, I realized that was all I had to drink all day long.

I knew that I couldn't handle that drink in moderation. I told my husband: DO NOT BUY ME ANYMORE.
I have kicked the habit before, and I can do it again.

It has only been a week since my surgery, but I feel like I could start walking again this week.

Hopefully, I will be a few pounds down by the end of the week. Wish me luck.
J

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Gallbladder Gone

So...not sure if remember but awhile back I thought I might be having some gallbladder issues. Well, last weekend I got really sick---again! I went to the doctor on Monday, ultrasound on Tuesday, met with surgeon on Thursday....gallbladder removed on Friday! Speedy, I know!

I am doing great though. Just really sore! At home and recovering...

Talk to you soon,
J

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Good Eating=Good Feeling

So...I can honestly say I've been back on the TRUE bandwagon since Saturday. Staying under 29 points, yadda, yadda, yadda. You know the drill: eating well, exercising, drinking water. What we all know we should do but sometimes some of us (ME!) make it seem so hard to do!

It really is amazing how much better I feel and how quickly I could tell.

I hesitate to use the word "clean" b/c I am not eating a "clean" diet like you read about...but I am clean from fast food, fried food, greasy / unhealthy foods...foods that I think taste so good in the moment but make me feel like, well, crap. Sorry, but true.

After two days, my tummy was slightly flatter. After 3 days, I just felt overall better. Slept better. Less bloaty. And...more in control. Do I have cravings for chocolate? yes. Especially today (TOM) but I've resisted. See---back in control.

We have been so busy the past two weeks. We were eating out more often than we should have, I was tired and cutting corners in the kitchen, and when my husband went out of town...well, let's just say Pizza Hut was called to the house. Sad, but true. Me and stress and busyness don't get along. I put the food bandaids on! I've got to stop that!

I'm so glad I didn't quit and gain it ALL back. The old me would have. I am mad enough about having to lose this five pounds over again! UGH. Why do I do that?

Well, I'm eating the right things and feeling good now. Hope you are too.
J

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Eye See Me

Okay, so you know I've been working on learning to like things about me.

#1 was my hands

This installment brings you my eyes...
weirdo picture, I know! But, I was trying for a close up.

This photo is without makeup. I've always received compliments on my eyes. My eyes are kinda big, but I don't think in a bad way. I have really thick lashes on top--great for mascara. I really like mascara! My eyes are green. No one else in my family has eyes the same color. Lots of blue eyed folks around me. I once wished with all my might to have blue eyes like my sister. My oldest child has inherited my eyes, and I love that. So, why don't I love it on me? Well, I think I may be close.

My eyes let me soak in my loved ones. I have two of the most beautiful children (I'm biased, I know). I could look at them for HOURS. I love to see them laugh, play, and oh...I love to watch them sleep. Isn't it wonderful! I love to look at my handsome husband...he's still makes my heart flutter.

I think my eyes let me show my sincerity. You can truly see my true heart through my eyes. My eyes will tell you how I am feeling.

So...there you have it...my second thing I'm liking about me today...

SEE you later,
J

Monday, May 2, 2011

Friend Makin' Mondays: Are You A Bookworm?

I'm linking up with Kenz over at All the Weigh for Friend Makin' Mondays. Her question this week is "Are you a bookworm? The idea is to link with her blog so you can meet new bloggers and find out the interesting things about each other. Feel free to join in.



Friend Makin' Mondays: Are You A Bookworm?






1) How often do you read? Always! Mostly when my girls' are asleep or we are traveling in the car. Of course, I have to do it when my family is otherwise occupied. I love to read on the beach, on the dock, in the boat, in the bed...hmm, anywhere there is a good book! :)

2) What's the last book you read and loved? I just read Jesus is For Real, it was outstanding. I also just finished all of the Hunger Games books. My students were reading them and I wanted to see what they were all about. In my opinion, 4th is too young for those books but they were written well. I did the same thing last year with the Twilight Series...way too heavy for 4th graders.   I also just finished  'Safe Haven' by Nicholas Sparks and all of the Emily Giffin books. 

3) What book(s) are you currently reading? I am almost finished with the O'Malley series by Dee Henderson. I'm one of those people that HAS to read the ENTIRE series in ORDER!

4) Share a few of your favorite authors. My favorite book of ALL TIME is Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers. You must read it! I really would read almost anything if a friend recommended it to me. I have an amazing book collection (in my opinion) and I have thought about trading books online. I'm sure I've spent a small fortune.

5) What's next on your list of must-reads? I want to read Water for Elephants. I'm also debating about getting a Kindle. I'm an old-fashioned girl! I love holding a book. I love how it feels. I just LOVE reading. Does anyone have any opinions here?

Happy Reading,
J

Now it's your turn to share your answers! Don't forget to link back here so we can all see your answers too! Happy Monday!

Sunday, May 1, 2011

The Monster Called Sabotage

I used to have a buddy in blogland (Jae) who always talked of "sledgehammers." She has stopped blogging but her words are still with me. She referred to the sledgehammers as the ways we sabotage ourselves. I think that may be what I am doing to myself here lately.

I know that I cannot meet my first goal of 150 by summer (one month away for me). Therefore, I'm sabotaging myself. Like...well, I can't meet that goal, I might as well really blow it!

Do any of you have this *crazy* kind of thinking?

I need to adjust my brain! I need to realize that pushing ahead will only get me closer to that goal in 4 weeks. It is okay to fall short. But eating will only cause me to have to start over!!! DUH!

I have recommitted this morning. Through quiet time and prayer, I have promised myself I will not sabotage me. I am worth the committment. I want to be just as excited about this as I was in January (hmmm...maybe I should go back and read those blog entries). I know I have the ability to do this. Emotional eating doesn't have to consume me. I can be in control.

J

***PS--I made it through yesterday without a slip up! :) Yay...maybe I'm back on the train. Wish me luck today.

Saturday, April 30, 2011

Royal Watching

I just love watching Royal Weddings. Did you check it out yesterday?

I still remember seeing Fergie and Andrew get married, and maybe I remember a little bit of Diana and Charles' wedding...I was young. But of course, over the years, I've seen tons of footage.

I like the story of William and Kate. I thought she looked beautiful. I was oh, so envious of her slim form in her wedding dress, and did you see her sister, Pippa??!!! Beautiful!!! I think those kinds of bodies are 90% good genes...well, I'll keep telling myself that to make me feel better!

Do you have body envy of anyone? Who?

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Bandaid Food

I am learning to recognize when I want food for reasons *other* than hunger. It's a good first step in the right direction. Stopping emotional eating.

Sometimes, I am successful....other times, I fail miserably!

I know that for years...long time...I have been using food as my bandaid.

I eat when I am...

upset
nervous
happy
angry
sad
excited
celebrating
lonely
stressed
socializing

etc, etc, etc...

If my husband and I have one of our rare arguments, uh- I mean "discussions"...the first thing I want to do is PIG OUT.

If my mother-in-law makes a "weighty" comment...I just want to eat and show her who's boss!

If I reach some kind of goal or something like that, I want to eat as a reward.

When I have a girls' night out (rare), we eat, eat, and eat more.

Tonight I am stressed and look what happened...

These little Reese's pieces! In a cute carrot wrapper. In case you haven't enjoyed these little pieces of glory...like M&M's but with peanut butter!!! Yum!

We are right in the middle of our HUGE home renovation project...lots of work, lots of money. A little gamble on our parts, really. Although I trust that the Lord will take care of us as always, I am a worrier. (I'm working on that too!)  So, I have eaten 3 handfuls of these treats! Oh, my!

Get out of here emotional eating! UGH...

Onto another battle tomorrow~
J

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Starting Small

I'm trying to start taking care of all of me. It's very hard for me to do this because of the dreaded MOM GUILT. You know it. We all feel it. The guilt that comes from taking time alone at the expense of time spent with husbands and children.

 I know, I know.

I need the time alone in order to be a good mother, wife, and teacher. But sometimes...it is just so hard to do.

I swear, I can find something wrong with all of me. Every single part...down to my pinky toe. I wouldn't treat ANY other person to this kind of scruntiny. Why in the world am I so hard on me???

I know...it's a tough code to crack.

Now, don't go thinking I'm a downer all.the.time. I'm really not. And, I never really talk negative about me...okay, sometimes I crack a joke or two at my own expense. But, it's not overdone.

I have seen other bloggers try to list the things they do like about themselves. I decided I would try that...

Ummm, it didn't go so well. I couldn't come up with ONE thing I was willing to publically say I LIKE about me! Sad! I know!!!

I decided to go with my hands first. I mean, my hands are so very useful to me. They are the hands that held my sweet husband's hands when we got married, the same hands I hold as often as possible. My husband always says, "you've got great hands"...  I need to be more appreciative of them! They are the hands that held my precious girls oh so many times. They help me fix their boo-boos, tuck them in at night, brush their hair, pray with them...on and on.  My hands help me cook, teach, and take care of all the things I do to take care of my loved ones.

BUT, I couldn't grow pretty nails to save my life. My nails are all peely, flakey, flimsy. So, I decided to take matters seriously. I started using a gel polish. Look how my nails have gone from nubs to kinda pretty! I even went and got  a french manicure...my very first one (well, on natural nails--I went through an acrylic nail phase a LONG time ago).

See, they've grown and look so much better. I'm not a "really long" nail person. This is just about right for me, maybe a little more but not much.

So...I'm starting with the hands. Improvement? check!

I'll move on to some other part in a few days.

Starting small,
J

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Happy Easter!

“For God so loved the world that He gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”

John 3:16

The Living Cross
(created by children where I work)

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Let's Celebrate

Have you ever noticed how much "we" celebrate with food?

Birthdays, anniversaries, babies, weddings, a good report card, date nights, winning a tournament, running a race, softball games, church functions, ....meeting goal weight. Okay, so maybe the last one is just me, but isn't it ironic.

Growing up, my family celebrated EVERY occassion with food, and I have to say I maintained that tradition with my own family.

I want to try to learn how to celebrate in other ways...Any ideas???

I've tried to start celebrating milestones in my weight loss journey with pedicures, new shoes, a new shirt, etc.

I've started taking my girls to get their nails painted, see a movie, or to buy something at Claire's when they have something worthy of a treat. But it is common for them to ask for a milkshake. Good report cards are usually met by a request to visit their favorite restauarant. Am I setting them up to eat emotionally?

I'd love to know how you feel about this subject.
J

Monday, April 18, 2011

Are We There Yet?

We recently took a vacation...about a 7.5 hour drive. That's the furthest my kids have been on a road trip. Of course, they are normal children so they asked "Are we there yet?" about a hundred times. I was thinking about how funny that is...all kids do it, right?

But it also go me to thinking about myself. I have been so focused on the end of my journey rather than the steps I am taking to get there. It's like I am saying "Am I to my goal weight yet?" a hundred times a week. I just want to be there so badly...just like kids going on a fun trip. I want that destination.

I tell my own children and my students that Patience is not just waiting. Patience is having a good attitude while you wait.  I haven't applied this to weight loss recently. I need to embrace this journey. Embrace the small victories daily. Saying no to 3 cookies at lunch, saying no to peach cobbler, saying no to soft drinks, relishing in my pants getting too big, loving a good sweat during my run...those are the little places to celebrate along this trip. I'm going to try to focus on the small stuff and quit worrying so much about WHEN I will get there. I'll get there when I get there, right?

Remind me to reread this post when I frustrated with the waiting...

:)
J

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Peer Pressure

I was never one to give into peer pressure. Never one to do something just because everyone else was doing it. I was a very responsible high school and college student. Not perfect, but very good most of the time.

I wasn't big on the partying that took place all around me. As insecure as I am about my weight, I could be around those who were drinking, smoking and having sex ...and still not do it. I never felt that kind of peer pressure.

However, I fell victim to peer pressure the other day...PEACH COBBLER. Several people at school know I am on Weight Watchers. As we sat down at a Teacher Appreciation celebration, my friends were raving about this peach cobbler made just.for.us. They would take bites and close their eyes in the deliciousness of the sweetness. Pretty soon, they were begging me to try it. I caved. One bite led to an entire serving. It was so good, but I regretted it instantly. Not because I can never have peach cobbler. Of course, I can in moderation. I regretted it because I didn't want it. I wasn't even hungry. I had my points set for the day. The cobbler pushed me over my count. I usually try to plan for those things. I have to learn that I am going to be in social situations where people will offer me goodies. My weight loss is not a big deal to them, but it is very important to me.

I have to keep that in the forefront of my mind...

Just say no,
J

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

High School

I wasn't the most popular girl in high school nor the least. I was definitely part of the "in" crowd, but I was also in a show choir and AP classes. Hence, I had a very diverse group of friends. BUT, I always felt a little different...older than them might be the best way to say it. I've posted on this before...being an old soul. I think it comes from surviving a near fatal injury. To be honest, I'm not really sure. I just never felt as free, or carefree, as my friends. I was aware of a much bigger picture, I guess you could say.

I struggled with my weight back then, too. Nothing like I do now. I guess I fought 15 pounds here and there. My senior year, I ate fat-free jello pudding and a baggie of pretzels every day for 2 meals for a very long time. Border line eating disorder? maybe.

I was definitely insecure. Trying not to be.

Where am I going with this?

Today, I had to walk over to the high school on our campus. As I was walking down the hall, the bell rang. Out poured all of the students to change classes. All at once, I was back in high school. I swear it was like a time warp. Those feelings of insecurity and worrying about what other kids think of me came rushing back. It was weird. I was worried about my appearance on a hallway full of teenagers!!!!

Where do these feelings come from? Will they ever go away?

I wasn't really worried about those kids (but I am glad I teach little ones). But, I instantly remembered those feelings and it wasn't  good. At times, those same feelings creep up...in social situations.

I'm eager to begin loving me...no matter what. Maybe it will happen when I grow up! :)

Eating well,
J

Sunday, April 10, 2011

The Delete Button

Will I ever be at a weight where I like pictures of myself????

We just returned from vacation...a lovely, lovely trip. I took hundreds of pictures. I was in maybe 25 or so of them. Guess what? I have almost deleted all of them. ALMOST.EVERY.ONE.

Will my kids even realize I was on the trip??? In each one, my eyes went straight to me. Immediately, I found every *bad* thing about me. Delete. Delete. Delete.

I don't give anyone else this option. I think pictures of everyone else are great.  I love candid shots of my loved ones...why can't I be satisfied with me??? What weight will I like my picture?

Isn't this sad! I know it! I can't stop critical self.

How does one truly begin to love herself? I know, I know....I can spout off all the things you are probably going to write to me. I believe those things too. God created me. I should love myself. I know all of the right things...I am still so critical. I MUST work on this!

I want my kids to have the pictures of our memories to enjoy later. I'm going to try to avoid the delete button in the future...

CHEESE,
J

Saturday, April 9, 2011

Gallbladder and Weight

I weighed 175.8 today. I was very happy with that. Just a little over a week ago I was 179. I've lost since I stopped the binge...go figure!. I have one more pound to go to get back to my lowest 174.8. I feel back in control. Here we go....again. At least I didn't totally lose control and give up as I have done so many times.

We went to Disney World over Spring Break. It was fun and I kept my eating in moderation with a few indulgences...it was vacation after all!!! I'm sure my loss was due to tons of walking...there was NO TIME to run. That's the kind of vacation you need a vacation from! Busy, busy, busy!!! We were on the go from sun-up to sundown!!! Truly!

However, I got sick on the last night and began to vomit. I threw up 3 times. I was then met by intense pain in my back. And, I began belching like crazy. I had a gallbladder attack (that was MUCH worse) about 10 years ago. I'm beginning to wonder if this was gallbladder problems again. I didn't eat spicy food, but I did eat a "rich" Polynesian meal with a glass of wine the night before. I very rarely drink alcohol...probably less than 5 times a year and never more than one glass. Has anyone else ever had gallbladder problems and can give me advice? If my back pain continues, I'll probably see my doctor on Monday. It's pretty bad.

One other bad habit that came back was drinking Diet Coke. Now, I know they are zero points on WW. And some of you feel that I should just drink it, but to me...it leads to 1, 2, 3, then 8 DC's a day. It gets out of control. So yesterday, I went back on the water only drinking plan. Well, I have to have one coffee in the morning, but after that...only H2O.

Now that my eating is under control and I'm drinking water...I need to up my running again. I plan to post my mileage b/c that really helped me last time.

I want to be under 170 by the end of April. Is this doable? I guess we will see!

Here I go!
J

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

New faves...

I have fallen in love with these new (to me) items...


These are 6 points on WW. I have had one almost every morning...mmmm. I heat it up while I am loading my girls in the mornings. Then, I come back inside and take it with my coffee and eat on the way to work. It has become my perfect solution for a quick and easy breakfast on the go on school mornings. Delish.


I love a wedge of this creamy cheese on Wheat Thin crackers. It is a low in points snack or great with a salad for lunch.


Do you have any favorite new snacks or foods you like?
J

Monday, April 4, 2011

It won't work, if you don't work it...

When I derailed my train over the past two weeks, I also had this amazing a-ha moment...

wait for it...

my "program" won't work for me, if I don't work for it!

meaning, if I don't count points--I blow through my healthy lifestyle. I overeat. I don't eat in moderation. I have no self-control. When I blow it, even one little meal, I tend to throw in the towel for the day. I know, it makes no sense! But, that is my pattern. I have got to learn, this doesn't work for me, or for anyone.

meaning, if I don't work my body: a) I don't feel good, b) stress consumes me, c) I don't help myself lose more weight, d) I don't tone, and e) feeling more and more miserable usually makes me eat and eat more. But when I exercise, it gives me even more motivation to stay on course. So, I've got to work out. Work it!

meaning, I have to hold myself accountable consistently to you. I have chosen this forum to help me in this journey. I cannot hide from you. I have to be honest about the good time and the bad times. My highs and my lows. My times of strength and my times of weakness. This swing is inevitable, and it is perfectly okay. I do not have to be perfect. There was only one perfect person to walk the earth: Jesus. So, the sooner I believe it is okay to slip, get up quickly, admit to it, and move on, the better off I will be.

Thanks for listening,
J

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Binge

Here is what I have always known but I relearned during my emotional eating:

Diet Coke still leaves me feeling bloated.

Nothing quenches thirst like water.

Greasy food gives me indigestion, makes my face break out, and causes my digestive system problems.

When I make healthy choices, I feel good and have lots of energy.

I am a grump when I gain weight.

I don't sleep well when I don't eat well.

I hate it when my pants feel tight.

I don't like feeling out of control.

Eating does not help my stress level.

Eating does not help my emotions.

Eating does not make my problems go away.

****I will reread this list next time I am feeling under pressure. I don't need to do "this" every time the going gets tough.

Hanging in there,
J

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Coming Clean

Here I am...

I need to come clean. I have been on an Emotional Eating Roller Coaster. That's the only way to explain it. I weigh 179. I have held my weigh there...I don't know how, really. It is a miracle of some sort. I have told myself I WILL NOT go back to the 180s but I haven't resumed healthy eats. Well, today I am coming clean with you---my support group.

I have been stressed out. Lots of things. I could list them all, but does it matter??? No. I knew the whole time that I was emotional eating. I knew it. I also knew it wasn't helping. I was just eating to fill some hole up...but I continued to feel stressed. I am ready for my restart.

Here we go.

I hope no one was worried. I know when I used to get frustrated when people would just up and quit blogging for awhile. I would worry about them. I'm sorry. I just was too embarassed to say that I was struggling. Even though I know it happens.

I'm ready to get back on the plan.

J

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

The ABC's of ME!

Something fun for today...feel free to play along!


(A) Age: 36 (How and when did this happen!)

(B) Bed Size: King

(C) Chore You Hate: Getting ready for the housekeeper to come! Oh, I crack myself up! No, I really don't like putting laundry away. I'm good with washing, drying, and folding. Not so good with putting it away...
(D) Dogs? No, we have an asthmatic child who desperately wants a dog!
(E) Essential Start Your Day Item: My husband waking me up with a hug and a cup of coffee in his hand for me. Awww...I'm spoiled and know it!
(F) Favorite Color: Yellow--although I rarely wear it or decorate with it. It is just a happy color!

(G) Gold or Silver? Silver

(H) Height: 5’7″ (at least)

(I) Instruments You Play: piano (Not really that good with my left hand though)
(J) Job Title: Mom, Wife, Teacher
(K) Kids: 2 girls
(L) Live: Georgia
(M) Mom’s Name: Nana
(N) Nicknames: J

(O) Overnight Hospital Stays?  Too many to list!!!!
(P) Pet Peeve: People who don't follow the "rules"
(Q) Quote from a Movie: "I'm a fly by the seat of my pants kind of girl." Pretty Woman (That's the only thing I could think of)
(R) Right or Left Handed? Right

(S) Siblings: 2 sisters
(T) Time You Wake Up: 5am on the weekdays...as late as my kids let me on Saturday, and 7am on Sunday

(U) Underwear: How do I answer this? Yes! I like pretty ones...
(V) Vegetable You Dislike: brussel sprouts
(W) What Makes You Run Late: my kids dressing American Girl dolls instead of themselves
(X) X-Rays You’ve Had Done: teeth,  foot, arm, leg
(Y) Yummy Food You Make: Spaghetti, Broccoli/Chicken Casserole, Shrimp Dip, Meatballs, Taco Ring, Dried Beef Dip, Nieman Marcus Bars, Peanut Butter Cookies...ummm...do you see why I have a weight problem???

(Z) Zoo, Favorite Animal: Monkey

Have a fun day!!!!!!!!!
J

Sunday, March 20, 2011

The Dumps

Boy, I have spent the past two week down in the dumps. I mean, really down. I think it all started around the time that my grandfather passed, but I just haven't pulled myself back up. I'm really at peace with my grandfather's passing...it was time. I'm not sure what it is. I've been busy, PMS, and a little stressed by other things going on.

I even took a few days off from Weight Watchers. If you have been following me since January, you know this is a first for me! I just didn't have the energy to deal with WW. Why? I can't really tell you.

Friday night, I decided I had had enough! I was reading a few blogs and stumbled upon Keelie's blog, Real Fat. This entry "Waiting for the Upswing" was the perfect thing for me to read that day. I really feel like the Lord led me to this blog! I have been in a downswing...but it is time to put an end to all this nonsense. Time for the upswing!

This is how Keelie defines the upswings and the downswings...

The upswing--everything is going smoothly, the drive is there,
 the effort is there, the planning is there...
to take a term from the book I am reading--
the "want to" is there. You are IN. THE. ZONE.

The downswing-- cravings are in full force,
the couch looks much better than the tennis shoes,
the food prep and planning is not top on the priority list
and the "want to" is kind of asleep...hibernating. BLAH.

Keelie worded it perfectly for me. Being in the upswing is nice, but you have to accept that the downswings will come...BUT the good news is you will come back to the upswings! The time has come to stop MY downswing. Get out of the dumps. I have to defend my hard work as Keelie so eloquently said!

So...I'm back. I did not lose weight this week. No shocker there. But, I am back. I will blog more consistently. I will exercise at least 4 days this week. I will count my points daily! I'm on my way to the 160s for sure!

Go check out Keelie's blog to get inspired. It helped me very much. Thanks, Keelie!

Talk again soon,
J


Saturday, March 12, 2011

Sunshine...

Today, we rode around in our boat on the lake. In the sunshine. Ahhhhhh...it was so nice. Perfect, really. I truly needed it.

The three most special people in my life (husband and two kids) were fishing and playing around and I reclined on the seat and let the sun shine on my face. Perfect.

My monthly visitor stopped by yesterday. PMS isn't my friend lately. When has she ever been, right? But recently it's worse. Is that age or what? I feel really lousy when she hits and my mood takes a dive...a low dive. I know it, but I really can't control it. To be honest, I only wanted to lay around in the bed all day. But, my husband encouraged me to come out with them today. And, I'm really glad I did. For a couple of hours, I forgot about the cramps, bloating, and cravings!

It is a perfect weather day. A perfect day to go out and enjoy God's world. I am very thankful for today.

I weighed in at 175 yesterday (even with the visitor)! I'll take it!

I didn't run very much this week so I am hoping to get back to that at least 4 times this week.

Does anyone have a favorite healthy cracker that you recommend?

Hope you have sunshine today, too!
J

Friday, March 11, 2011

Praying

Just praying for everyone who suffered from the earthquake/tsunami today...
J

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Guess What!!!

I snapped out of my pity party today! Wow, it has been a tough couple of weeks! Sad, busy, overwhelming...lots of family stuff. Helping my mom with her mom. And, I'm PMS...not a good combination!

But guess what.... I weighed 175.2 today! For some reason, I was so happy to see that 5! It made me think that the 160s are close! I'm working hard to get there! I can't wait!

Today, I was telling an overweight woman at work today about Weight Watchers and what it has meant to me.

She commented that she could really tell I was losing weight. She asked, how are you doing it? I answered with Dawne's line "Eating less, and moving more." Then she asked, "But are you using a plan?"

I told her WW.

She said, "oh, I joined but I never tracked my food or logged on." I was torn...should I say "well, you have to do the work to see results" or encourage her try again??? I mean, that was me before now. I always made excuses!

I just told her what had helped me. Logging my daily points. Learning how to measure food...I had no CLUE about portions, discovering moderation (key!), and exercise.

Maybe it helped.

I'm happy with 175.2 today. Hope Friday...is lower.

J

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Not Enough Land

Have you ever been there?

I used to take extended vacations at this not so lovely place of "Not Enough Land."

I wasn't thin enough to:
  • wear sleeveless shirts
  • swim in public with my children
  • wear shorts (longer ones) in 100* weather
  • wear cute summer dresses
  • dance in front of others
  • draw attention to myself
  • wear fashionable clothes
  • walk proudly alongside my two sisters
  • see people that I haven't seen in awhile
  • stand up for myself
  • try new things
  • walk in front of a large group of people
  • try on clothes at stores
  • step on the scale with confidence at the doctor's office
  • enjoy a girls vacation to the beach with my friends
  • spend money on my clothes

I could probably make the list a lot longer if I had time to sit and think!

I see how much my self-worth was tied to my weight. I wish so much that it wasn't true. I wish that I wasn't insecure. I wish I knew I was valued by others regardless of my weight. Why did I let something have such control over me? Why didn't I take control of IT sooner if bothered me so much?

Does this make me vain? Why do I care so much about these extra pounds? Why have I let my weight have such influence over most decisions I make?

I am starting to feel better, and I am confident this summer will be more fun than last. I do swim, boat, ski with my family...just not in front of guests. I am thinking a lot is about to change about me.

I'm done visiting Not Enough Land.

I am enough. JUST AS ME.

You are too,
J

My First Slip

I slipped. It was my first slip since I had my restart on Dec. 31. It was a mini-binge I am sad to report.

My husband is out of town. It was a long, difficult week. I put the girls to bed. And, I tried to eat away some stress...and down it with a (get ready...) DIET COKE!!! My first one since Dec. 31. Argh.

My binge consisted of 2 brownies, 1 fried chicken strip, 2 chocolate truffles and a Diet Coke.

This was all around 9 pm. Much too late to be eating!!! Way too many calories!!! Way over my daily points allowance. But, I stayed under my plus points for the week. I've never used those before. ugh....

I knew I would regret it. But I have to be honest --that Diet Coke tasted SO GOOD, you guys! I enjoyed every sip. The food not so much. I knew I was emotional eating. I still ate it.

I woke up this morning disappointed with myself. BUT...ready to move on. I exercised. I've eaten well today. It was a blip on my screen. I forced myself not to weigh....why focus on that slip? I will weigh on Friday because that is my normal weigh in day.


A good night's sleep was much more beneficial to me. I am feeling better. I know better than to try and use food to make me feel better. At least it was minor damage. In the old days, I could've out eaten anyone, I'm sure. Yikes!

In the future, I hope to remember last night and how I felt afterwards. Overeating doesn't help anything! Not how I feel now, not meeting my goals, and it certainly did not take away the stressful problems.

Moving on...

Here's to a good week....

Healthy eats and water drinking!!!
J

Friday, March 4, 2011

Life

 Life happens. The way you live your life is very important. Sometimes you have to help others. Sometimes people need you. Sometimes things make you very, very busy.

This week my life got in the way of my weight loss efforts. I was counting points, but not exercsing much. NO TIME. This happens, right?

Two weeks ago my grandfather was put in hospice. He passed away on Saturday. The funeral was Wednesday. I have spent hours and hours on the road driving back and forth to my grandmother's house and to the hospice. Many hours sitting beside a hospital bed holding a hand. (All those posts this week, were pre-written.) My family needed me. I needed them.

My poor grandmother.

I feel comfort for my grandfather. His quality of life was not good. He would not have wanted to live like he was living. I know he is healed in Heaven now and that comforts me. But, my grandmother was married to him for 66 years and made very few decisions. They were the generation where the husband ruled the home... She is lost. She is an angel. One of my favorite people of all time.

The poem "The Dash" was read at his funeral...

by Linda Ellis

I read of a man who stood to speak
at the funeral of a friend.
He referred to the dates on her tombstone
 from the beginning to the end.

He noted that first came the date of her birth
and spoke of the following date with tears,
but he said what mattered most of all
was the dash between those years.

For that dash represents all the time
 that she spent alive on earth
and now only those who loved her
 know what that little line is worth.

For it matters not, how much we own,
the cars, the house, the cash,
what matters is how we live and love
 and how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard;
 are there things you’d like to change?
For you never know how much time is left
 that can still be rearranged.

If we could just slow down enough
to consider what’s true and real
and always try to understand
 the way other people feel.


And be less quick to anger
 and show appreciation more
and love the people in our lives
 like we’ve never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect
 and more often wear a smile,
remembering that this special dash
 might only last a little while.

So when your eulogy is being read
 with your life’s actions to rehash
would you be proud of the things they say
 about how you spent your dash?


© 1996 Linda Ellis


I like that a lot. I hope you do, too.  He was a special man. I have very special memories, and I feel blessed that my children knew their great-grandfather. His dash was awesome. His life was filled with love.

****************************

In not so important news, I weighed in today. 176.2. I lost one pound. I seem to be on a steady pace of one pound a week. I know, I know...that's good, but I am going to try to lose more than that this week. I would like to pick up the pace a bit again. I like to see good (faster) results.

Have a great weekend.

Hug your loved ones,
J


Thursday, March 3, 2011

Comments and Followers

Do you get excited when someone leaves you a comment on a post you've written?

I do.

Do you love it when you log on and see you have a new follower?

I do.

One day, I logged on and I had lost a follower. It bothered me. Did I offend this person? Was I annoying? What happened that made him/her leave? I am a pleaser afterall.

I wish I could figure out who my newest follower is (anyone know if there is a way to do this?). I love to try to find new followers on my sidebar and leave them a comment if I am able.

I also LOVE comments!!! I like to know what you think about what I'm saying. I love it when "we" relate to one another. I love to hear about your experiences--what works for you, what doesn't work for you, your advice, your encouragement.

I try to leave comments for those that leave me one, too. Do you do this?

Isn't it awesome how you can feel a connection with a person just through blogging...never having met? People that you look forward to hearing from and reading their blogs.

I love that!

Blogger Friends.

Friends I never would have made if I didn't start this experience.

So, thank you! Thank you for following me and reading my posts. Thank you for responding to me...for making me feel like it matters.

You are helping me!

J

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Holy Cow?

Do you eat or drink a lot of dairy?

I don't.

I know I should consume more dairy products. There is some research that says eating dairy helps you lose weight. You know, those ads that say "Got Milk?"...don't they say something like that?  BUT, I just can't get into it.

I like yogurt. That's about it.

I will have skim milk if I eat cereal, but I rarely do. To eat cereal, you actually have to sit down with a bowl to eat it. I just don't have that kind of time in the mornings. Getting all 3 of us out of the house by 6:30 is hard enough without sitting down for a meal! I usually take a yogurt or something to go. (My sweet hubs cuts me up a grapefruit every morning and fixes my coffee...awww. So, I usually eat something to go with my fruit. I'll post about my favorite WW breakfast later.)

Oh, I put a little skim milk in my coffee in the morning, but that is basically it. Does that even count?

Of course, I love cheese! Um, not eating so much of that nowadays...too many points and all. Only in moderation!

What do you think of dairy? Should I make a conscious effort to include more in my diet?

J

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Oatmeal...not so much



I've been trying *new* foods. Can you believe I have never eaten oatmeal!!! Well, that is until a few days ago.

Ummm, not so much. I did not like it.

I wanted to like it. I know it is a healthy choice for breakfast. I tried adding raisins. Tried cranberries. Tried brown sugar. Tried cinnamon.

Nope. Nope, and Nope!

I think it is the texture. Just couldn't do it.

I'll just stick with the things I enjoy for breakfast, I guess.

Do you like oatmeal???

J

Monday, February 28, 2011

Abs and Arms

I need to really work on my abs and arms. I still have the baby pooch...(my baby is six...and so is my pooch). I need to work out my abs.

AND...I saw a picture of me...oh, my arms. I really don't want to talk about it. :(

Anyone have any good, quick workouts that you've seen results from?

I already run 45 minutes a day...I can't do too much more. (Mom guilt, ya know)

Let me know!
J

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Recipe Winner

I have a new recipe...that I think I created. I'm sure some of you have made this, too. But, please, let me bask in my glory! :)

It is my husband's newest favorite (and mine too) that I cook. It is simple and easy...and LOW in points. Winner!

Even my daughters will eat it.

Here are the pictures.

I call it...

Mediterranean Zucchini
(I don't know why I named it that...)

1. Start with fresh zucchini. Cut in up into bite size pieces. I use 3-4 zucchinis.
I cook them on medium in 2 tsp. of EVOO. The zucchini is 0 points. The EVOO is 2 points.


2. When those are cooked like I want them (still firm), I add in some cooked tomatoes.
These tomatoes are from my MIL's garden. She cooks them and then cans them.
I found some canned tomatoes (Delmonte) at the store that were 0 points.

3. I cook those until they are bubbly. Then I drain off the excess liquid.
Then, I sprinkle Parmesean Cheese in it and stir.
1/8 of a cup is 1 point. But I doubt I use that much.
4. Then, I sprinkle 1/4 cup of mozarella shredded cheese (2  points). I cover the pan and let it melt.
5. Yum! I know it looks like a lot of cheese, but it is only melted on the top.
The whole pan is 5 points. :)
I usually eat about 1/6 of pan or maybe a bit more.

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I have been using these measuring cups/bowls. I bought a scale to weigh my food, but these cups really help me to measure my food and keep track of my points. They stack up so cute!



I hope you make this dish and love it as much as me! :)

J