do you ever wish you could live in bubble?
last night, i woke in the middle of the night...stressed about work and the addition to our home. I found myself wishing we (hubs and kids) could just live in a bubble...not having to worry about other people.
of course, this feeling is totally incomplete...i would really miss my sisters and parents. mother in law? not so much. :) and of course, i do have friends that i would miss terribly.
why was i feeling this way? i think i just don't want to be bothered...with money issues, work issues, MIL issues...with weight
i almost asked my hubs if he could live with me just like i am forever. then, i could put away this weight problem, right? wrong.
the problem is not with him. it is with me. he loves me. has never said a thing. although i am sure he likes this body better than the 222 pound body i once had. and he probably remembers distantly the 125 pound body that he married....oh, the days. anyway...he doesn't care.
i care
i want to lose the weight forever
that is the biggest problem for me
the work stuff--out of my control
the money stuff over renovations---going to be fabulous when it's over, papers are signed, deal is done
i need to get back on the weight...it's weighing me down
You can do this!! It is difficult when "things" weigh you down. Concentrate on the things you can control and try to let go of the rest. Have a great weekend!
ReplyDeleteYou're progress in your weightloss is similar to what mine was a few years ago! Don't lose heart. Keep going...and don't look back! Seriously. Do not lose focus. i did :( and gained most of it back. It's a constant struggle to want to live in a bubble, it sounds great. To just float along without a worry?! But we can do this. Keep holding on :)) Just focus on how much better you feel now compared to back then at 222lbs?!?!?! :P
ReplyDeleteYour top three stressers are exactly mine - money, my weight and my MIL! So funny! We have to get back to it because we're not going up to 200 again. Come on, let's do this!
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